After The Rain ? from Karen Abad loves Dinosaurs. on Vimeo.
You know how you can get bogged down and forget to do the things that fill you up? Well I think the light has dawned… I am tired because I am not really doing the things I need to do to take care of me. Firstly, shutting off my brain and letting other creative souls fill it. Reading has always given me a real place to go and rest. There are other things that I have always done to get me back in the right place. Painting, writing, walking… and guess what? I had stopped doing all those things. Bad Tracy!
Writing and painting both operate the same way in me. I create and something flows through me. I don’t feel like I am making stuff, but that stuff is coming from outside, through me and ending on the page/canvas/screen. The end result was not there when I started… The painting is a surprise, the revelations that come from journaling did not reside in me when I started. The thoughts, feelings, ideas, emotions are all brand spanking new to me when I get to that place. I always feel so energized, so happy, so right when I finish. Why did I stop? Stupid lack of focus. I just need to remember what is important… and knowing what makes me tick is got to be at the top of the list.
Walking on the other hand works a whole other way. I just go and wander. In wander I can see… see in a way I have not seen in ages. Observe, discover, absorb. I spend so much time at work MAKING things happen it is nice to sit back and let things happen to me. So, now I need to get my paint brushes out and make a place and time to let the creative spirit flow.
